Tuesday, August 31, 2004

If You Go Chasing Rabbits...

Spoke with Mangey today regarding my current situation of soul searching. Her advice is always good. Even though she sometimes gives those bitter pills to swallow, the pill works, and I feel like Alice falling down the rabbit hole.

I opened up the book "Women Who Run With the Wolves" and let it find me a page. Interesting enough, I had put some cards in at the page it opened too....and what was the page it fell too...but the story of crescent moon bear. So here is a passage from the chapter that I thought how ironic....it is about rage:

"All emotion, even rage, carries knowledge, insight, what some call enlightenment. Our rage can, for a time, become teacher...a thing not to be rid of so fast, but rather something to climb the mountain for, something to personify via various images in order to learn from, deal with internally, then shape into something useful in the world as a result, or else let it go back down to dust. In a cohesive life, rage is not a stand-alone item. It is a substance waiting for our transformative efforts. The cycle of rage is like any other cycle: it rises, falls,dies, and is released as new energy. Attention to the matter of rage begins the process of transformation. Allowing oneself to be taught by one's rage, therby transforming it, disperses it. Ones energy returns to use in other areas especially the area of creativity. "

So down the rabbit hole I go, and it is dark, and damp and smelly...Here is my one and only match I strike...And I see the mountain looming up ahead....Its gonna be a long and raging climb.........

15 comments:

Killy said...

Wow, profundity abounds! Good luck with that rabbit hole!

I was totally skeeved out my freshman year in high school when in the course of researching a book report I discovered some of the... um... sexual... undertones of "Alice In Wonderland". Let's just say the "rabbit hole" is representative of another dark, moist (eew! I HATE that word!) hole. Gross!

bunny said...

I always meant to read that book. Good luck in the rabbit hole, V.

SJ said...

I kinda liked that passage, given as I am one who is prone to rage over small incidentals in life. Rage as teacher. Hmmm. Profundity abounds.

Elizabeth said...

Ok, so what are you going to do? What is your next step oh vampyregirl?

mangey cur said...

My little esoteric vamp.. good work, like your use of metaphor and stuff. On an Alice related note, I was recently reading Alice in Wonderland, having realized I had never actually read it before...thoroughly enjoyed this one illustration of the Catapillar sitting on a giant mushroom smokin a hookah pipe and getting wasted on what seems to be opium.Tons o'drug references. Love it.

Kymmie said...

...and the Mad Hatter? Because his name infers that he has a lot of hats? Implies excessive amounts of condoms, therefore further implying that it is ok to engage in gratuitious sex. I read that somewhere. I think I might have used it in a paper for a class I got kicked out of. In any case, much luck on your journey down the rabbit hole. I'll probably be at the bottom when you get there, or at the very least, shortly thereafter.

Pisser said...

Yep, Killy.
When you think that the Right Reverend Dobson also might have wanted Alice's "rabbit hole", you'll get skeeved off even more...!

Thanks for this post. I am feeling a shitbomb of rage right now myself. Being robbed will do that to you. Must write scathing retorts...!

nongirlfriend said...

I find a good way to deal with my rage is to mow down pedestrians on the way home from work.

Or maybe just have a cocktail.

Seriously, great post. Rage is a terrible thing to have to deal with.

Smiley said...

Nothing like a good rage induced workout to make you feel better. Those seem to be my best workouts.

Killy said...

Chicken, you should have a cocktail, THEN mow down pedestrians. It helps your aim!

Anti-Domestic Violence and Abuse said...

hot damn! i just took a look at your photo album.. nice pics of the dogs too =)

Anti-Domestic Violence and Abuse said...

Interesting perspective on rage. I take out my agressions by cleaning and tidying up, it gives me a sense of satisfation and I'm much more productive in an organized enviroment. I do that now instead of shoplifting and throwing glass bottles out the window of my car, it's amazing what a trip to jail can accomplish.

Killy said...

I clean, too. I think it's part of my control-freak complex. I can't control ANYTHING in my life, so I try to control my surroundings by keeping them neat and clean (which you couldn't tell by the state of my room at the moment). I also clean when I'm drunk. It's SCARY.

vampyregirl said...

glad to hear the "rage" has helped those ragers in need....and Mangey, funny thing was, I was actually gonna call the blog: A Hookah-smoking caterpillar has given you the call. From the line in the Jefferson Airplane song...

Flex...most amusing your dealing with rage, as Satan was cleaning the house last night, dealing with his rage also...

scarlett said...

IM IN THAT SEARCHING TOO