I'm Not Gonna Take it....NO I'm Not Gonna Take It...Anymore!!!!!

I had an appointment today with a new account, and she was very very organized! She had a business plan put together, she was working with a business planning consultant, and just had her shit together. It made me so want to start my business now!! We went to her new place to view the size of her spa room to make sure it was the right size that she was supposed to have. And it was just a cool little space she was renting...it soo had potential, it was in an old building with a couple of different stair cases going up, wood flooring, her space looked out over the street, so she had a cool view and everything. It made me really want my own business. On the way home I am thinking, I should really start my business plan, and really start looking into getting my shit together and start this business.

So I get home, check the mail, and see that there is an envelope from my company.....So of course when I get in, I open it, and it is a copy of my review that I had the other week with my boss. I SWEAR she had changed stuff. As now where I was overall meeting standard, she has scratched that out, and put needs improvement....WHAT THE FUCK????? I don't believe she can do this, but of course she didn't have a copy for me when I signed it, and now the copy I have has a scribble where she did have meets standards, with a circle around needs improvement...Normally I would be really really pissed off...Especially as I have been having my anxiety lately...But instead I feel a little irritated. And more determined now to really start looking into getting my shit together.

Looking more into my review, she fails to make other corrections on it, so everything is checking out that I am meeting standards, but the last page is where it says overall performance....And that is where she has scribbled out the meets and x'd in needs. I am just kinda flabbergasted for lack of a better word. What meds did she forget to take before sending me my copy.....And did she really think I wouldn't notice this.....

I think meeting with this new account today was a sign....I really do....What am I waiting for....Am I waiting for someone to really send me over the edge before I do something.......Which is what usually needs to happen. So before I go over the edge per usual, I will start researching more into opening my own place..So I am off to write a business plan and see where that leads me too......